Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in dana_mariee's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, March 3rd, 2004
4:05 pm	SaMsS QuiZz http://similarminds.com/cgi-bin/newbig30.pl Big 30 Test Results Sociability |||||||||||||||||| 54% Aggressiveness ||||||||||||||| 50% Assertiveness ||||||||||||||| 50% Activity Level ||||||||||||||| 50% Excitement-Seeking ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% Enthusiasm ||||||||| 26% Extroversion ||||||||||||||| 50% Trust ||||||||||||||| 46% Morality |||||||||||||||||| 54% Altruism |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Cooperation ||||||||||||||| 42% Modesty ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Sympathy |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% Friendliness |||||||||||||||||| 60% Confidence ||||||||||||||| 42% Neatness ||||||||||||||| 50% Dutifulness ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% Achievement ||||||||||||||| 42% Self-Discipline ||||||||| 30% Cautiousness |||||||||||| 34% Orderliness ||||||||||||||| 44% Anxiety |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86% Volatility |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 90% Depression |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 90% Self-Consciousness ||||||||||||||| 50% Impulsiveness ||||||||||||||| 50% Vulnerability |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Emotional Stability ||||||||| 27% Imagination |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Artistic Interests ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Introspection ||||||||||||||| 46% Adventurousness ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% Intellect ||||||||| 30% Liberalism ||||||||||||||| 46% Openmindedness |||||||||||||||||| 54% Accuracy: - 5 high 4 3 2 1 low Big 30 Key Factor low score high score Sociability reserved, detached friendly, open Aggressiveness predatory, domineering mild mannered Assertiveness introverted, loner controlling, aggressive Activity Level relaxed, laid back vigorous, high energy Excitement-Seeking sedate, restrained adventurous, wild Enthusiasm somber, pessimistic cheerful, optimistic Trust suspicious of others trusting of others Morality manipulative, lawless honest, dutiful Altruism selfish, cold helpful, selfless Cooperation argumentitive, aggressive conflict averse, meek Modesty arrogant, self-satisfied humble, unassuming Sympathy callous, heartless empathetic, warm Confidence not confident in work confident in work Orderliness disorganized, messy planner, clean, thorough Dutifulness dishonest, derelict honest, rule abiding Achievement lazy, unmotivated driven, goal oriented Self-Discipline procrastinator resilient, efficient Cautiousness spontaneous, daring careful, controlled Anxiety relaxed, fearless fearful, worrier Volatility calm, cool touchy, tempermental Depression content, balanced emotional, self hating Self-Consciousness confident, assured low self esteem, shy Impulsiveness high self control low self control Vulnerability resilient, unphased confused, helpless Imagination practical, realistic dreamer, unrealistic Artistic Interests artistic indifference art, nature, beauty lover Introspection not self reflective self searching Adventurousness conventional, safe spontaneous, bold Intellect instinctive, non-analytical intellectual, analytical Liberalism conservative, religious progressive, open (Comment on this)
2:19 pm	[mood - sleeepppyy] [music - mest - return to self loathing] heyy just got home..school was quick today which is always good..got out at 11:45..yeah then me mary and gee went to gees house..hmmm mary bit me right through the skin lmaoo and gees jus weird with the whole cheek biting thing lmao..yeh anyway then we went to applebees and ate good food mann..then we finished and sed heyy to timmy cuz he got outta school..we walked to go see passion of the christ but it didnt work out and we cudnt see it..yeh thats ok though so we went in some storess and then i got on the buss..i cant wait till weekend as always..same boring life as ever..we saw these three old ladies helping eachother..we hope thatll be me gee and mary..lol mary was the short one with the walker..imagine if she shrinks up and becomes a midget and cant look in the mirror anymore bcuz shes too afraid of herself..now that would be greatness.. mary cant hang out fri shes being all LUCKY and going to the mest concert..me and gee will miss her!! yeh ima do her hairr.. me and gee are gunna go tanning on fri..whut an experience that will be lol.. yeah anyway i dunt have anything to say marys making me update this thingg!! (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 26th, 2004
10:26 am	[mood - lonely] [music - thursday - this sadness alone] yeah i havent been in school in two days..im soo sickk i hate being sick..its sad when out of about 20 days i feel sick for 19 of them..there has to be sumthin wrong with me..i mean is it normal to never want to get out of bed and that when u do you almost pass out bcuz u blank out and go numb..watevaaa you kno its only the lack of iron..well i dunt agreee soo many ppl are anemic or wateva it is there has to be sumfin elsee..watevaa yeah anyway i havent spoken to like anyone in two days..i talked to annie for like 5 min yesterday but thats it..i hate that..i feel almost cut off frum the world its weirdd..its like all i have to do is sit and think and thats prob the worst thing you can do..its like anything can come into ur mindd are people happy they havent spoken to you..have ppl sed bad things about u and decided they dont wanna talk to you anymore.. has anyone decided that there better off without you..its weird its like being in a room where all u can do is think and ur mind is ur worst enemy bcuz it most likely will make everything seem like its against you and that being alone is ur only option..trust issues..wowww i really wonder if other people think like this..i hope they do cuz thatll make me feel better but i also hope they dont bcuz its a horrible thingg..i feel like im going back to being quiet and secluding myself frum everybody..like ill go sit alone but all ill really want is someone to come and sit with mee..not having to talk at all but just to sit together and thats it..watevaaa the only person whose probably gunna read this is mary and thats ok cuz she knows all thiss but yeahh..ima go back to bed and watch tv..yeahh (Comment on this)
Monday, February 23rd, 2004
3:52 pm	MaRySs qUiZzzZ....tBfFL**** Name]: danaa mariee -OF.THE.OPPOSITE.SEX- [What do you notice first?]: hair and eyess [Do you have a crush on anyone?]: nahh [Easiest to talk to]: mary gee danny -WHO.WAS.THE.LAST.PERSON- [You talked to on the phone]: mike [Hugged]: mary [You instant messaged]: i dunt instant message [You laughed with]: mary mike rob danny -.YOU.- [Could you live without the computer?]: noo [What's your favorite food?]:pizzaaa [Whats your favorite fruit?]: umm im not like mary who like orgasms over fruitt...yeah [What hurts most: Physical or Emotional Pain?]: def emotional -NUMBER- [Of times you have had your heart broken?] twicee.. [of times you have taken illeagal drugs] only a feww [of tight friends you have] bunches [Of CD's owned?]: tons [Of scars on my body?]: bunchh [Of things in my past that i regret?]: too many..infinity [Siblings]: nonee...alone -OTHER.THINGS- [I want]: my lower back tattoo..damn 18th bday..umm clothes..hair dyed..new sneaks? [I have]: pictures in front of me..there dannys and there great [I wish]: i could go back in time and do everything different [I hate]: people in general..all of em almost..and girls! ahh [I miss]: summer..being young and happy and shtt [I fear]: bugs, change, and loss [I hear]: my dad watching the news and my fingers typing lol [I love]: cali gee and all of my friends [I ache]: i have a headachee... [I care]: about all of my friends and how people perceive me [I always]: am predictable [I dance]: when theres music? [I cry]: when im upset or hurt [I write]: when im full of emotion or have homework i guess lol [I confuse]: myself [I can usually be found]: with mary and gee or at home sleeepinggg [Favorite place to be kissed?]: lipss -ARE.YOU.A...- [Wuss]: hmm [Druggie]: noo [Gang member]: nooo [Daydreamer]: yeahh [Alcoholic]:nooo bad stuff man [Freak:] hmm a lil freaky lol [Brat]: try not [Sarcastic]: yeah [From another country]: yeh ok noo [Shy]: sumtimes when im wif ppl i dunt kno [Talkative]: most of the time i dunt shutup [Adventurous]:not really but me and gee were random and wanted to have adventures and go to the beach and get lost on the buss [Intelligent]: uhh no -CONCERNING.THE.FRIENDS.YOU.CLAIM.TO.HAVE.- [Impacted you the most spiritually] i dunnno [Wish you saw more often]: alissa [Most Sarcastic]: that damn mike..and gee [Knows you best]: cali gee kris danny [Best outlook on life]: annie [Sweetest]: janet [Crizz-aziest]: mary n meeeee! and alex [Most like you]: mary n gee [Opposite of you]: kristal i think [Who you know you'll be friends with forever]: mary deffff when we get our apartment -SELF.ANALYSIS.- [Your best feature]: nufn [Your biggest flaw (personality)]: everything [Biggest mistake you've made so far] too many i always make mistakes [Describe your personality in one word]: i try to be nice and try to show i care but i can eitha be too outgoing or too quiet..im not rele balancedd [Height]: 5"8 [A smell that makes you smile]: cuRve [A drink you order most often]: snappleee [A delicious dessert]: iceee creammmm [The music you prefer while alone]: blinkkk [A film you could watch over and over]: EMPIRE RECORDS! [A TV show you watch regularly]: one tree hill, real world, american dreams, alias [You live in a]: 2 family house [Your cologne or perfume:] gucci rush II [Under your bed or in your closet you hide]: books and old shtt [Something on your night table]: i have pics of all of my friends all over my tablee [Favorite sport]: soccer [Favorite color]: hot pink [Hobbies]: hanging out with all my friendss [Your mood right now]:imm good i had fun todayy [If you could do anything right now.. it'd be]:sleeepppp [If you could be dating someone right now, who'd it be] uhh yeh [If you could drive any car right now, itd be]: a jaguar of mustang convertible.. or escaladee or a nice car.. ya knoo lol [Piercings]: 2 in each ear and belly button [Tattoos]: cant waitttt yeh man [Hair color]: light brown wif blonde highlights [Length]: long i guess (Comment on this)
3:22 pm	[mood - hyper] [song - alkaline trio - maybe i'll catch fire] heyy yeah man i just got home from the hand ball courts..back to school and it really sux but wat you gunna do.. met mary after school and then smallz came..next danny came and he brought funny pictures yayy..then mike camee..me smallz and mary went to get foooddd..me and mary were so hyper it was soo much funn..we jus like ran around a whole LOT..yeh then rob n dan huran or wateva camee..yeh i pushed mary threw the hole in the fence and wudnt let her out it was coool man..then me n mike made my dad come get us..yeh and now im really bored tom i have csi lab afta scool horrible..yet again i cant wait until fridayyy..niceee (Comment on this)
Friday, February 20th, 2004
1:22 am	I Changed My Name by: Sugarcult i couldn't sleep last night my ears were ringing in my head best friends with the boogie man i may be better off here dead running on empty once again too tired for tears i dread sink deep into those magic dreams while i blast off in my bed and you know i played it all in here where everyone hides their darkest shades of fears and i threw my whole night down the drain you know cause everyone says that i'm not the same since i changed my name three hours later and i'm staring at the ceiling still xanex does nothing more but calm the sleeping thrill turning the pillows round and round to find the cold spot for my head ah, bless my only friend and you know i played it all in here where everyone hides their darkest shades of fears and i threw my whole night down the drain you know cause everyone says that i'm not the same and everyone turns tricks for fickle fame i feel my body's lost control my knees give way as i drift away and it gets darker, darker dreaming's where i am and you know i played it all in here where everyone hides their darkest shades of fears and i threw my whole night down the drain ooh and you know i played it all in here where everyone hides their darkest shades of fears and i threw my whole night down the drain you know cause everyone says that i'm not the same since i changed my name (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 19th, 2004
11:52 pm	[mood - happy] [music - killing me softly with his song] yeah man its nighty time..im sleepin at gees house tonight shes actually sitting right next to me yeahhh..anyway today i went to marys then she drove us to get gee and then to timmys..then me mary gee n danny went to the mall and ronny met us..wow i want to buy soo much stuff basically it was all hot pink..yeah and then gees brother picked us up and we came back and all ate dinner at gees and sang HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ronny..yay ronnys 18 go ronsterrr..anyway then we walked around and did nothin and went to sedutos..mary n gee decided hey lets poke a decapitated pigeon with a stick..were intelligent..then we took the train to pathmark to buy dunkaroos..spontanious and random it may seem..then we came back and called jus bout our entire phonebook and sed we loved them..we have lovee to givee..anyway now me and gee are sitting hea gees drinkin sumthinn out of a blue wine lookin glass and im writinggg in thisss thingg.. soo lets see how the rest of the vacation turns outt.. (Comment on this)
10:05 am	[mood - tired and useless] [music - sugarculy - your the one] yeh im sitting in yearbook class right now..im so bored i have absolutely nothing to do everyone else is busy..i hadda be here at 9 this morning i am soo tired..yehh yesterday was boring we played pool and walked arounddd..horrible people were annoyin..ppl have alot they need to understand..i think only gee knows what i meant and how i felt..yeh anyway marys gunna pick me up in a few hours yay..i hope todays a good vaca day unlike the rest of the week..yeh vacation suckeddd anyway laterrr (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 17th, 2004
1:44 pm	[mood - angry] [music - papa roach - last resort] yeh todays just like any other day ..have absolutely nufn to do..yeah anyway went driving this morning with my aunt and my mom..i was so nervous i was shaking cuz driving someones elses car is scary cuz u dunt wanna mess it up..got in a huge fight with my aunt..she called me names and yelled at me..i told her she doesnt have the right to or to lecture me and stuff and yeah were not talking..i cudnt stand her before and now i dunt even wanna be around her.. you kno how people act diff according to like the age they grew up in..well she doesnt feel i have a right to say anything, feel anything, or even show feelings like crying..i guess bcuz she cant..wateva i cant wait till seeing these people is a choice..family jus seems to be sumthin your stuck with and try to be there bcuz they feel they "have" to not becuz they want to..it actually hurts inside to think that people you are brought up to think love you and stuff really dont at all..when you grow up u start to see that things people do really are to hurt you..my mom jus tried to get me home and out of her house..now im sitting here waiting for mary to call me who i thought was gunna call me hours ago..i dunno where she is man? and gee sed shes leaving soon to come so im gunna meet her.. i called kristal i cant get in touch with her i wanna hang out with her.. i jus wanna get out of my house..when ur in a depressing atmosphere u cant help but be depressed..i jus want to get out of here..its like suffocation..please someone call me (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, February 16th, 2004
7:21 am	[mood - grr] [music - offspring - race against myself] heyy cant sleep its 10:21 in the morning ahh..yeh anyway yesterday i met danny at 2:30 at vesuviouss then we met rob at the handball courts and then mary came..it was sooo cold..anyway then we went to smallz house and then jeremy camee..we jus hung out there for a while and got warm! next we left to go to the pool hall..funn yeh and i hadda go home at 8 cuz im still punished..yeh that suxx im supposed to go driving today and now my mom is being weird ima fail my road test..i dun even rem whta im supposed to do..yeh watch i crash while taking the test..anyway my parents are goin to the travel adgency to talk bout hawaii and i have nuthin to do..todays gunna suck jus like every.. ud think since theres no vacation thered be sumthin to doo but noo..and why does it seem that sum friends are startin to act diff to me..like pulling away its weird.. i hate change..i dunt adjust well at all (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 15th, 2004
8:37 am	[mood -sleepy] [music - lost prophets - and she told me to leave] last night was ok i met gee mary jer and his friend jen and we went to robs house..then alotta otha ppl camee..my dad bought me the hot pink coach bag for valentines day!! yay..anyway it was an ok night i guess..everyone baked cookies and sum turned out ok! lmaoo yeh then a buncha ppl i dunno came but they hung out upstairs and played quarters..everyone else jus basically stayed downstairs and i hadda play secretary n take messages.. hahaaa and sum ppl there really shuda left..two ppl in particular..yeh man and then i left at 12 and mike walked me home..kinda boringggg but ehh..now i have t go to community service and then ill prob meet mary.. (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 14th, 2004
9:19 am	[ mood - sick ] [ music - 2pac - Runnin ] figures feb vaca started yesterday and im sick..my throat feels like death and i cant stop coughing..todays wonderful valentines day..great holiday rightt? yeh anyway i didnt go out last night but i hea that i didnt miss anything except a horrible time..ima meet mary at 4:30 today and go to robs as always on sat..we both have a feeling its gunna be a bad night..it prob is..there hasnt been a good day in a while..does anyone realize that as u grow up nothing gets better only worse and that situations only become more depressing..i also discovered that im a "needy" person..i always need to have someone to talk to and stuff its weird i never realized how far from independent i am until lately..wateva lets see how great this day turns out..peacee (Comment on this)
Friday, February 13th, 2004
2:27 pm	[ mood - upset ] [ song - linkin park - without you ] right now im sitting in yearbook class..i have nothing to do..mary and gee juss went to the city..yeh man ill go next wweek with kristal and get those good french fries!! and go to the "sex" shops..yeh mann..anyway im really bored and so is kristal cant wait to see general hospital today..fridays are always the best..kristals gunna come over and watch it with me and well have a party yeh man..anyway ill write tonight cuz i dunt think im leavin my house tonite.. dunt wanna hang out wif ppl..YEH MAN (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 12th, 2004
3:25 pm	[mood / badddd] [song / eve - love is blind] yeahhh im in a horrible mood..school was alright i guess i think i failed my italian test but yeah i was all psyched bout spring break in hawaii i was spending it with three of my best friends.. mary gee and kristal and now mary cant go..its horrible we had so many plans and stuff to do..now i feel like its ruined i mean its great that gee me n kris are goin but its still gunna be diff..its horrible the trip is like ruined.. falling asleep in huge bathtubs sleeping on the beachh in the sand!!not being albino anymore..ahh horrible i guess she got a bad punishment for sat afterall..tom her n gee are goin to the city..i wanted to go but ehh..anyway thank god its weekend and thank god we have a week off but now im in a bad mood.. stuff seems ruinedd.. and now i dun really wanna talk to anybody (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 11th, 2004
2:27 pm	[ Mood - tiredd] [ Music - The GetUp Kids - Regret] yeah woke up feeling like sht and like i hadnt slept in weeks..i didnt go to school today..my mom lemme go meet mary smallz and gee at the pool hall today..im getn like addicted to pool..yeah man..anyway hen timmy came..he was surpirsed to see mary..then rob walked in..then janet..it was funnn every reminisced bout sat and stuff..rob sed he rem my mom screaming that if she ever catches me with another fkn bottle agen shell kill me..yeh good times..anyway i hate how people arent taking the night seriously at all..mary was like one sip from dyingg..what would it have taken to make them realize this.. i bet if it happened to them theyd still think it was funnyy..wateva i cant change sumones opinion..mary sed the only way shes goin to robs house party on sat is if we jus stay in robs room away frum all the alcohal and UNWANTED people..yehh anyway me gee mary n janet jus went to get pizza then my mom picked us upp..i thought my mom was gunna scream at mary but all she sed was lemme see ur eye and that she scared her..yeh so now i just came home and am bored.. i hate being home unless its for sleepp ..yehh anyway gunna go watch summmm televisionnn (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 10th, 2004
11:27 am	[ mood | blah ] [ music | taking back sunday - eleven] today suckedd..got up went to school came home..mary got taken by the councelor.. gay people dun understand sum things arent there business..and wow theres way too many insensitive and selfish people in this world.. i mean with what went on last weekend and having my best friend almost die u think ppl wud use their heads to make decisions and attempt to give advice..it may not be my fight but im not going to damn well sit around and watch ppl attempt to take advantage of my friendss..yehh anyway gotta watch gh (Comment on this)
Monday, February 9th, 2004
1:05 pm	[ mood | relieved ] [ music | gavin degraw - i dunt wanna be] omg today i woke up in the worst mood..me and gee jus sat in school all depressed talkn bout saturday..then mary walked in ran over and hugged uss!! ive never been so happy to see someone..besides for her eye being like 50x its real sizee she seemed ok..we talked bout it all day and almost everyone seems to kno whut happened one way or another..i dunno it was a weird day..supposed to call mary at 4 and im online ooppps ill sign off in a sec.. alex called me last night to see how i was feeling aww i love alex i wish he hung out more we used to be best friends..well always be close cuz weve known eachother so long though..yeh im exteremely boredddd lataa man gtg to hawaii meeting at school! (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 8th, 2004
11:10 am	[ mood | worried ] [ music | sugarcult - pretty girl] i dunt want to put any details about yesterday bcuz i dunt want to offend anybody..but it was def one of the worst days of many peoples lives..rob lupias house party was funn and alot of my friends and ppl i didnt kno were there..i just hope everything works out and marys ok..fill ya in laterrr<33 (Comment on this)
Friday, February 6th, 2004
12:03 pm	jusss got back frum school..i despise school..its unwanted and uncalled for pressure..i did good in everything on my report card except this oneeee math gradee..ehh its gross it makes the whole report card look ugly.. i went up 24 points in history yayy its my highest subject.. my mom changed my punishment till march which is better and i can go out to like partys still and stuff..its not that bad and i think im getting the hot pink coach bag for my good gradess..yay! i am apologizing to mary for beinggg soo insensitivee.. i constantly asked her whats wrong and why shes being diff when i cudve jus used my headddd and figured it outt..! i love maryyyyyyy shes my best friend!! oo yehhh..todays gunna be soo boring.. everyones goin to hang out cuz its FRIDAY and i have to stay home and do nothingg.. i have to finish my camera tommm..yeh man.. im prob jus gunna watch empire records over and overrrr..mary made a poem bout me its greatttt..kristal has her bff in her profile lmao jkk i love kristall.. i need to find good stuff to post in here my lifes beyond boringg..ahh me and kristal were talkn bout how my probation doesnt end till may no more summons' for meeee..college is coming..i cant wait till senior year.. itll be a breeze besides for AP PHYSICS..my nightmareee! breanna left me to do my science project all on my own! i should kill her! everyone in school was singing the first cut is the deepest so now it sux and has to come out of my profile.. yehh ima stop writing now ill jus be backk tonight..its general hospital timee...me and gee will have to discuss the showw..zanders gunna dieeeee and im gunna cry! loveeeeeeee (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 5th, 2004
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